I haven't written a journal entry in ages. I've been incredibly busy lately. I have been working and going to job interviews and trainings. I've also been busy getting the information and documents I need to emigrate to the USA and I've had to go to these meetings held by the unemployment center twice per week.
"Wait, don't you work? Why do you have to go to those meetings?"
It's because although I work, I don't make enough money to make a living and since I have worked for my previous employer for over six months, I am entitled to welfare. Obviously I am urged to find another job, so I won't need that anymore. This means I have all kinds of obligations, that (quite ironically) often interfere with my work schedule and opportunities to work more.
One of these obligations is, as I've mentioned before, the meetings. I personally hate these meetings. All it is, is listening to other people complain about how hard their lives are. If you know me, you know I've been through some shit. So when I am scolded by the rest for trying to be helpful or just plain trying to lighten things up, I get quite irritated. These people think I have it easy, because I'm the only one who isn't being a pathetic little bitch. What these people don't get, is that I am beyond the point of feeling bad for myself. I'm done moping, because I hit rock bottom quite some time ago and almost kicked the bucket because of it. It was there and then that I decided I would make it no matter what, because I'm not giving anyone who ever told me I'd never amount to anything the satisfaction.
But these people are still sitting on their asses, waiting for someone to make their lives better. These people say they're fed up, but lemme tell you something: you're not fed up until you tell yourself you will simply not live this way anymore, not even for another minute. These people are obviously still too cozy to say that to themselves. They can get angry all they want, but I'm the only one in the whole group who's getting anything done.
I have to go to this cryfest again the day after tomorrow, but I think I'm telling my coach it'll be the last time. This is just not working for me.
Now, about me moving to the US... WHAT A PAIN IN THE ASS!!!
These people think I piss liquid gold or something, because holy crap, it's so expensive! They also think I have nothing to do all day and that I have kept a record of everything I've ever done since the day I was born. Why does it matter which schools I attended since the age of 11? I gratuated with straight A's, isn't that enough? Why do you guys want to know on which addresses I've lived in this country and from what month to what month I've lived there, if you're already getting a certificate of good conduct from me? Every bit of information they want is on a different document, which I have to purchase mostly in a different place than my home town and sometimes have to have translated. Let's also not forget the non-immigrant and immigrant forms I have to file and the additional fees. Then there's the bullshit like: if you want to make an appointment with your local US Embassy Consulate, you have to call a number that costs €15 + €0.90 p.m. . Oh, and if you want your visa extended, you and your spouse will have to fly to Anchorage and book a hotel, because we can't do shit per mail. Teehee!
As if my plane ticket to the United States alone isn't expensive enough.
I'm not even gonna start about what my fiancé has to put up with at work right now, but believe me when I say it's ridiculous. As for myself, I might get a new contract at the hardware store where I used to work. Fingers crossed!
By the way, see this:
... at the bottom of each journal entry?
I mean that, so stop telling me what to draw next. When and what I upload is entirely up to me.
In other news: my faithful Berlinian friend is coming to visit me again in exactly one week from now. I'm looking forward to it! I do not intend on spending much, but we do have a bunch of activities planned. Among them are a trip to Amsterdam and a trip to The Hague; both of which I have coupons for. We'll probably mostly be window shopping and visiting museums, which is always fun. The timing couldn't be better, because I am in serious need of a vacation!